Now I am crying. I can't helpt it, I miss him so much. I never would have thought this would be so hard. I thought I would eventually forget but I can't.
It's hard because sometimes I hear meows and I can swear it's Mystic, but it turns out to be another cat. I have dreams of him, where it's so real. I just want to know where he is. I don't like not knowing what happened. That happened to my cat Lucky when I went on vacation and my roomate decided to throw him out side while I was gone. I raised him from a tiny baby and we were inseperable, and I came back and he was missing. He had never been outside before and there were coyotoes around. Lucky is how I got my screen name, Luckies4me. He even has a song I sang to him. I never imagined losing a pet would be this hard. Morgan was terrible, but Mystic was here on his first day of life, and has been since. It's just different. He was born on my lap and I was there for all his moments. I just miss him. I can hardly look at his pictures now. I jsut feel awful because it was me who should have protected him. He should have never been outside. I just want to see him again. I am sorry for bringing this up again but it's very very hard for me.
If you can say a prayer for me too I really need it. Life right now is not going as good as it should and I am having a lot of troubles, which is why I haven't been posting much here. I am depressed and just feel like sleeping all day. Dan is treating me like crap too. I just can't wait to go home to California. I really need to see my family.
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